People I am grateful for... My Boyfriends, My Yangs

I am the yin and they are my yangs. Yes, I've got two yangs; one is a loud yang and the other is a passive yang. Despite our oppositeness, being with them makes me discover more of myself. They measure my patience and my tolerance, and that's why I am grateful for their existence in my life.

We are so opposite in many ways, which make us compliment each other. I am the shadow, and they are my lights. They sometimes make me crazy, but who isn't, right?



He is my loud yang. (He is so loud that sometimes you would not want to be with him anymore because he can just mortify you any time!) Ever since our paths have crossed, we clash every now and then. Sometimes we get along but most of the time we argue (but not the type of argue argue but argue in nonsensical way.) It's a battle of pride between us - who is right and who is wrong, it really doesn't matter whether we are making sense all along.
Funny how we still talk even though we get each other's nerves sometimes. (How could I ever forget the time when he professed to everybody that if given the chance, he would not talk to me anymore! The nerve! All the while I thought we were okay only to find out that we weren't??? But that was the past, we are better now. In fact, we are still the same cat and dog even in text, or in Facebook. LOL!)
To the first guy who got me drunk on Christmas Day of 2010 and recorded one of my most embarrassing moments (an angel must have been watching over you when you decided to delete it; the angels wouldn't mind it as well if you would delete the pictures.. :D); to the only person who could still make me jump off my feet whenever he asks me a favor (remember the time when you called me 1 o'clock in the morning just to pick you up at David's park because you were incredibly drunk that you even fell in that narrow waterway?), Michael B. Aparri, you have no idea how much I cried when you left for Manila because of the fear that something not good might happen to you there, but then I realize, you're old enough to take care of yourself. Just don't dare to forget that I am just here as your friend no matter what. :P



On the contrary, this guy is my passive yang. I can say, he's the most pessimistic person I have ever met; but I have to say, he's also the most enduring person I have ever met (or so I think.) We both dislike how the society dictates the world, it's disgusting; however, our approach towards it is quite different - his is hostile while mine is apathetic. Whenever we converse about how the universe sucks, he tends to be so fervent I am surprised how he was able to contain it! It's just sad that others could not get him, thus he is often judged as cynical and glum (I am guilty of it sometimes, and how I hate it whenever he tells me that because he is just so right.. not all the time though.)
Perhaps it's all because of his artistic flair that he had developed the negativity inside him. I just hope he would stop making the world as an excuse to his artistic growth.
To the guy who would unknowingly shed light to my life, Robellito C. Diuyan III, I know you love life, stop holding it back. There's no harm in smiling to the world once in a while... by the way, I am missing our conversations, whether through text or chats, I guess we are both so engrossed with our own lives now. However, just be reminded that I will be forever grateful for meeting you. Until next, say, "laag"? ;)
(And I wonder how we would react into this blog post. He might despise me after this and would not speak to me anymore. LOL. Don't get me wrong, I am just only expressing my gratefulness towards the people who have played a significant role in my life and you just happen to be one of them. I hope what I did would not be a crime to your waking existence. :D)

People I am grateful for... My Boyfriends, the Lifesavers ^_^

I would have been dead by now if they did not arrive in my life and threw me the rope so that I would not fall deep in the darkest pit I have ever known. Others may think that they have tolerated me, I think they just knew that I have to learn "that thing" the hardest way. With this fact, I couldn't help wondering: how were they able to survive my constant and repetitive complains and whines? I guess it would not matter anymore, what matters is, I owe them big time and the words "thank you" will never be enough.

He was the first ever person who found out about it. I don't know why but for some reasons I just couldn't hide my secrets from him. It seemed that he always know that something had happened to me by just looking at me. (He must be a mind reader! LOL.) He was my number one fan in this aspect (unfortunately, wala na jud siya'y pulos so dili na jud ko mag.hoping kay ako ra'y lugi... LOL.)

To my partner-in-crime whose professionalism I deeply admire (no wonder nahimo kang Educ. Coordinator sa ACLC kay pag.trabaho, trabaho jud; wala'y friends, friends... kung deadline, deadline jud... maski close ta, kay late man ko naga.submit, late jud ko... hahaha!) I super miss our sneaking out whenever there's a school activity and the things we do for each other whenever we were caught in a situation (dili na nako i.elaborate kung unsa man to kay basig ma.discover.. hahaha!) To the person who kept on watching my back while I was still there; everyday I am missing our sneaky conversations, Alvinfred A. Hinay, lead the way and I will follow! (Kabalo na ka kung unsa meaning ana... Sige na ba, para mangadatu na tang duha ug taman tapos pamaliton nato ang dapat pamaliton para lang sunugon.. hahaha! Aw, dili ko bitter ha.. XD)

I could consider him as my knight in shining armor (the BIG knight in shining armor.. LOL.) How could I thank him for not spilling my short-kept secret in our circle of friends? He had witnessed the stupid things that I have done; despite that, he never reprimanded me outrightly instead he continued supporting me in my foolish pursuits. He didn't lack in reminding me though, he kept on telling me that all my actions had its consequences and I have no right to complain about it. 

To the guy who heard my sobs over the phone, we may rarely see each other but he always make it to the point that I will never be alone. Just one text and for sure I would be receiving comforting (sometimes bully) words. (Ang nagpautang sa ako ug 500 php katong na.jobless ko kay tungod sa akong kabuang nga hantud karon wala pa jud nako nabayaran kay pirmi mawala sa akong mind... pakyas jud kaayo ko ba, dapat magbayad na jud ko kay karon siya na pud ang wala'y work... tsk, tsk... Sige lng, mubayad nako! Hahaha!) Rengel G. Ranises, I know that you are in a deep struggle right now but I know that you can get through it. Your kindheartedness will lead your way to the road of success. :). (Pero please lang jud, kung maka.work naka, tiwasa dayon imong BS ha para maka.graduate na ka... ako bahala sa imong thesis! ;)

Thank you for helping me keeping my dignity. I almost lost my soul, almost lost my senses, almost lost my heart. You served as my crutches at the time when I could not walk because of one crazy decision. I am happy that you had let me wander around that dangerous forest... you knew that it would be very difficult and I am so much thankful because I didn't think that you would be checking on me once in a while just to make sure that I am safe. Again, no words can ever describe the gratefulness I have inside. All I can do for the both of you is pray to God that one of these days, you would finally find the bliss that you both deserve. I so love you! Mwaah! ;-*

People I am grateful for... My Boyfriends, the Three Musketeers =D

"Emoooooooo!!!"

This would be the word that would be screaming inside their head, that's for sure. I don't know why, but for some reasons their faces would go frowning every time I try to speak what I feel or think regardless whether it's about love, life, work, whatsoever. Nevertheless, I still love them  (even though they kept on bullying me every time we get together... oh well, whatever! LOL.)

Who would've thought that we would be close buddies after all these years. The first guy whose face I have slapped so hard (haha! I could never forget that day... it happened one hot afternoon of August >_<.) The guy who  deposed me from the Top Ten Freshmen Students in high school (he came tenth while I came eleventh! I wonder what he did to our teachers??? Just kidding! =D.) I am not really sure if I was feeling lucky then because he was considered as one of the campus heartthrobs and he was never ashamed of telling everybody that I am his walking diary (that  is just because I have witnessed most of his puppy love escapades and was one of the few people who really knew about what happened to his immature romantic sprees... and until now I still can't get over his stupid decisions over love but everything seemed to be paying off anyway as he has finally found the love of his life, we are all just waiting for his wedding day.. hahaha!)

I wonder if he had also told everybody that once in our life I became his official secretary, am not going to elaborate though. LOL.

Forgive me if I haven't finished writing you Naruto Episodes (gamiti lang ug "r" brad, mahatag ra lage nako sa imo puhon.. ;D), Buddy Mark C. Salonga.

Almost everybody despised him in high school. He was one of the misfits, often misunderstood and was labeled as "ang lalakeng laging nireregla". I think he rarely smiled! Our friendship was built when he had a relationship with one of my bestfriends. It was then that I realized that he was "somehow" nice. LOL. A video/computer game addict, he's really good when it comes to shooting and strategic games, I guess that's where his intelligence really is. I am proud to say that I am one of those who influenced him to join YMCA, it was right after that he started to become more open with the people around him (although there are still times where he would rather isolate himself from the society for some reasons I now completely understand.)

To the guy who inspired me to write my first  official acrostic, (ay, dili diay, si Sean Cordova diay to.. wala lang nako natago ang papel.. jejeje) Eugene E. Frontada. (Aw, Eugenee diay... Hahaha! Asa naman intawn ang atong komiks uie? Hmph!)

Well, this one is interesting. (Confessions, confessions... he used to be my crush in second year high school.  LOL. But past is past and we're all over it so let's just put it all behind, shall we? =D) Being friends with him at first was somehow awkward especially in high school as most of our classmates would tease us, but time has its magic and eventually we were able to build a platonic relationship. I shall never forget the day he was admitted to the hospital, I almost cried and even asked God to switch our places. Fortunately, he  was spared and now he's very alive and kicking and has become a health buff.

I guess he's one of the most responsible guy I have ever met, I have always admired him for his talents (I hope he would revisit his drawing skills again, he's really good at it.) He was also considered as one of the best computer gamers in our batch (hurot gani ang class fund tungod sa pagkahawd sa Counter Strike.. hahahaha!)

To the richest guy among the group, Jason C. Mejares, when shall ever we see your mansion?? =p

Just so you know, I am never a rose in our group. We are all thorns. Hahaha! I so love you guys  despite your bullies whatsoever. Till next pigging out! XD (Unta next time ako na pud ang naa'y ipaila-ila sa inyo kay pirmi lng kamo... hahaha! Pero hulat hulat lang, basig muabot na siya puhon... you are very free to knock him off, whoever he is.. LOL.) 

People I am grateful for... My Girlfriends, My Fair Ladies

I may sometimes seem not to care, but you will always be in my heart as long as I breathe. I thank you for the gift of friendship and I always feel blessed every time I remember you. ^_^ 
(Sori lang jud usahay kung ma.deadma nako inyong mga text or messages ha, wala jud nako na gipang.tuyo.. pero kasabot man ko nga kasabot mo.. ;D)



I wouldn't be surprised if one of these days she would stop talking to me: Her phone calls I often miss, her sms I would  often overlook, and her chat messages I would often left unread - sometimes  unintentionally, sometimes not. I just wish though that she would  not think that I care less about her because the truth of the matter is she has always been one of those significant persons in my life. She gets me crazy sometimes, but I completely understand because I am like her at times only she's more expressive than I am. :D

She is my gym buddy (although we would only go to the gym twice or thrice every month due to schedule conflict.. hahaha!), and sometimes my truth serum (because she just wouldn't stop unless she would get the real score from me, she always does that to every people she wants to get to know). 

Oh well, what more can I say, Ana Marie S. Balanay?

I may sometimes make her feel that she is annoying (which is somehow true - her untimely requests would often caught me off guard leaving me feeling useless because I would become one of those persons who couldn't be there for her whenever she needed someone the most), but she has always been the friend I could rely on whenever I needed someone to paint a smile on my face (*wink*  oh crap! the tears are threatening! nooooooooooooooo! LOL).  

My Miss Daredevil, I admire how she fights for her happiness no matter how superficial it is sometimes. At times I envy how she takes her life lightly, because she can still manage to smile despite the challenges and criticisms being thrown at her. People may think of her as a flighty simpleton, but she always  has a big heart especially to her little child, Erika. I just hope she would love herself a little bit more and realize that she is worth knowing. 

To my crazy friend Julianne Jane C. Diongson, believe me,  I have always felt blessed to be one of those persons who you allowed to know you for who you really are. :)

We've known each other since kindergarten. The friend I rarely see after graduating from high school. I felt honored when she chose me to be her Maid-of-Honor at her wedding  (a role sometimes I don't think I deserved until now.. hahaha!) Her friendship I will forever treasure which has been tested by time already. A devoted mother and Jehovah's follower, I am always glad to see how her life is going so well. She might sometimes feel that she has been left behind as most of us, her friends, have all become career women, but she has no idea how lucky she is to be doing one of the noblest job in the world - being a mother, a wife, and a woman of God.

One thing I am always grateful about our friendship is the fact that we really do not need to talk every day just to let each other know that we care. The bond that we had has transcended  beyond physical connection, so I thank you so much for the friendship Sheila Mae de Asis-Aparece.